Wow, Welcome to the year 2013. I don't know about you, but I am excited for the promise it brings. I have been working on making lots of changes, and I think many of you are moving into a place where you can share more of yourself with others, and release the fear that has kept us isolated for so long. A few nights ago, I had a dream, which I felt was the culmination of many things, but the message was very clear: Focus more on ME, and stop giving my power away. The Dream:
I found myself in a beautiful castle, decorated with many tapestries and luxurious items, each room more pleasing than the next. I became aware that, while I did live here, none of the rooms were MINE. I began to search diligently for a door that would lead to what belonged to me, and I eventually found myself with my hand on a doorknob that I knew led to the basement. I opened it, and as I descended, the glow was palpable. I was reminded of Aladdin's cave, as my eyes took in jewels, gold, and piles of treasures, as far as the eye could see! I knew within the depths of my soul that THIS was MY ESSENCE. My entire house/life had been spent asking others, "What do you think, what do you want?," and this had resulted in a house/life that, while beautiful, was not my truth. As I stood in awe of my very pure and original essence, I realized that I had never before truly known my essence, untainted by others' expectations or ideas for me. I had let my need to "heal" or "help" others, get in the way of what I needed to do for myself! I bowed my head in gratitude and vowed to myself to always put myself first, from this day forward. In love, I would give myself my essence, and others are welcome to share it, but no one can take it.
My life has taught me many things, and I am grateful for each lesson that I have learned, for they have been my stepping stones for where I have landed today, which I am eternally grateful for. My work is not done, by any means, but I know that I have begun a new path today, and from here on out, I will honor myself FIRST, for my pure essence is what I must always nourish. I am a healer, and I know this is on my path of purpose, but I can heal others from a place of love for myself, instead of giving myself away. To share your essence and honor your truth is the greatest love of all, is it not?
Happy 2013, wishing you all the best for this next year, and beyond! Namaste.