Week Seven: Hitting my Stride

A funny thing happens when you push through your fear and do that thing you are most afraid of: FREEDOM. It is the wind that blows when you are hot, and tired, and need a break. It is the coldest drink of water on the hottest summer day. Freedom is, as Janis Joplin sings, "Another word for nothing left to lose", and that could not be more true. I have found my truth, nestled in the old newspapers and that pile of stuff I need to take to Goodwill. Old patterns have no place in my new life, and as I let go of relationships which drain me, and only exist to serve the other person, I feel exhilarated and FREE. 

I always want to see the best in others, and I have a habit of missing who they really are, because I see who they COULD be. The problem with that is obvious, those are the wounded soldiers, and I am the nurse who is constantly tending to them. I am so busy tending to the wounded, that I don't have time to look up and see what else is out there. There are many healthy people walking around, having fun, enjoying life, and I could be among them. Now that I have seen this paradigm, I want OUT. I want to sign up for a new role, and while I can still help those who need it, I want to do it from a place of loving myself enough to have fun, and enjoy life, instead of constantly staying in the pit of despair. That does not resonate with me any longer. 

I am looking around, outside of that old fearful paradigm, and I have already connected with some amazing souls who are doing their work, and on their journey, but are also having fun and enjoying life. What an amazing concept! I feel so grateful that I have connected with like minded souls who support me in MY journey, but also accept my support of theirs. We are all in this together, and everyone falls down, scrapes their knee, and needs a hug. Staying down, not so much. Healing is a conscious choice. You have to FEEL it to HEAL it. 

And I, for one, have decided the dating hiatus is over, but my work is never done. I made the decision in a space of pain, and now that the pain is gone, I feel exhilarated and open to new things. The Universe has sent me someone who is so perfect for where I am now, that I can't ignore it. When the person you have been asking for shows up on your doorstep, how can you walk away? So, I will keep walking my path of truth, and accept the gifts that I am given, and be open to whatever flows into my life, in the love and truth that is MINE, and mine alone. People come and go, and they all have a purpose in my life, but they do not all have longevity. Sometimes, situations happen to push you into something that is out of your comfort zone, and you might not have otherwise been open to it. So, I breathe, and I accept that I am getting all the things I have been asking for, even though it is not with the person I originally thought it would be with. I release my expectations and turn my face upwards to the kiss of the light, and the promise of the love that is mine, to both give, and receive. 

Enjoy this beautiful Friday!!! The beautiful weather we are having echoes the light and love in my soul. Blessings to you all, my friends.